Running, Hiding, Scared 05-04-2010

Running
Hiding
Scared
Running from potential
Running from futures
Running from might be's
    could happens
    and what if's
I run from that which does not exist
Hiding from life
Hiding from others
Hiding from me
    myself
    and I
I hide from everything that is now
Scared of leaving my four walls
Scared of leaving my head
Scared of opening up
    letting in
    and being me
I am scared of that which is in my control

Questions 03-15-2010

Questions

Questions
they come in
they go out
they linger
they direct
they get answered
     by lies
     by truth
     by what we wish were true
Questions
they return
theta are forgotten
they maintain
they fuel
they claw for answers
     for lies
     for truth
     for hopes
Questions

A shift 03-02-2010

A shift

Seeing
Thinking
Feeling
Seeing, yet choosing not to
Thinking, yet choosing to ignore
Feeling, yet choosing to disregard
A shift
from what I should
to what I should not
I see, but go blind
I think, but become ignorant
I feel, but only me
A shift
from what shouldn't
back to what should
To see, again with clarity
To think, again about all
To feel, again everything
Seeing
Thinking
Feeling

Restless 03-02-2010

Restless

Restless
Restless hands
Restless mind
Restless Body
Restless
Don't want to sit
Don't' want to wait
Want to touch
Want to feel
Want to create
Yet still I am...
Restless
Restless body
Restless mind
Restless hands
Restless

How much 02-23-2010

How much

How much?
How much is real?
How much isn't?
How much of what I
    see
    hear
    think
    feel
    know
    fear
is real?
How much is of my own creation?
How much is in my mind?
Is not that which is in my mind real?
It is my reality
How much is
    real?
    true?
    me?
How much?

Beginning to forgive 02-16-2010

Beginning to forgive

I forgive
everything
I forgive
everyone
I forgive
Those that hurt me
Those that damaged me
Those that broke me
I forgive
Allowing myself to be hurt
Allowing myself to be damaged
Allowing myself to be broken
I forgive
Myself
For leaving those I care about
for the destruction I have caused
for the hurt I have given
for the pain I have given
for my patterns
for choosing to not see
for using others so I may hide
I forgive

Momentum 02-11-2010

Momentum

Stand up
Walk
Stand up
Move forward
Stand up
You have legs
they are strong
Use them
Go
No one will do it for you
Stand up
Walk
move forward
and go